(Source: ggrint)
I have this math test tomorrow that I am going to fail. I am failing all of my classes and I will have nothing to show for my whole semesters life. Omg I am just setting myself up for failure right now. I just can’t do this anymore.
but after waking up at 7 this morning, its kinda hard to be working at this time of night. But I need to focus and have a goal!
Today is not going to be like that. I have to work at 9:30 for the whole day which I will be okay and then all nighter would be in order I think if I want to get everything done. Just by going down the long list. I think just by going down in order will get it all done.
I just haven’t had the best of day. I want to curl up and fall a sleep with her.
Make her shut off her phone and we just talk and fall a sleep
Wow she just put her phone and iPod done after an hour and a half of sitting here. I am going to continue listening to music.
I have so much to do. My fault again, what’s new. This weekend is going I be long too because it’s Easter and I am working all weekend. It will be a long weekend in a sense of how much I have to do and what I want to get done. Right now I am sitting here with her and doing math. But she would rather be antisocial into her phone and her iPod like always that I am just here alone. That’s why I would rather do math alone because she knows more than me because I haven’t done shit and I just like doing my work alone. I will e the type of person that does all his work alone, like the project on Tuesday that I have to present and my partner is not really with me on it. I am doing it all which I am okay with but at the same time is stressful and I already have so much to do. I haven’t been able to write for my tech blog, do apps or anything.
The thing that scares me the most is depending on what happens with that interview, I could be two ways.
1. they are shit designs, they give me no positive outlook and I go back to my life and probably eventually fall out of a dream that I have had since the App Store was introduced.
or…
2. I could have my first, possibly second application done and going on to the App Store, but with the help of the programmers at that private company, they could help me organize and clean up my code, making me learn new things and new ways, which will help me in future projects. I would have helpers possible to test my apps too. My friends and a couple intense people that know this shit and will tell me if they like it or not.
Who knows maybe I will be 3 apps done and 4th on the go. Rolling around in my Mazda with my Macbook running Xcode and making the next Angry Birds. Who knows….
I was given the choice to have professionals look at my application designs and tell me their input of it. I have started to put work into it and hope to have something more then drawing and sketches to show them. This, when set up will be a very important day in my mind.
The company is a private application design company that deals with university students, however I am not in university YET, but it could open opportunities of helping me on my way, opening my mind and possible summer internship of looking over peoples shoulders and learning little things here and then. Not to mention it could set me up for a co-op position for Univeristy where I would get payed and such.
But the most significant thing about all this is the professional looking at my work and telling me straight up whats good, whats bad and what is shit!
Days before that day will be stress level and organizing a keynote, screenshots and more, not to mention getting something to wear. The outfit I will be wearing will be professional but casual at the same time. It will have to be comfy and probably will make me feel older and more stressed. But I just need to relax and show them what I got.
I will also, when I buy that outfit, get a celebration outfit which will be more casual and if positive outlook on my work, I will take my friends all out. But if not, I will also be buying track pants and will probably relax by cuddling with her and eating ice cream. Genius, both can potential happen so I have to be ready for both.
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